Quotes

The rat race - the pressures of success....  Am I being a good faithful leader to my family?  How do others see me, what do they think of me.... So many questions and so little time and woooossshhhhh life just passed by and what is the account.... This weekend we - as I promised last year we leave no man behind - attended the PK event in Mississauga.   On Friday evening when Ted Debiasi asked to come forward I kept pressing myself down in the seat - I was already saved, I am a man of God and of faith - I of all people.....  I knew exactly what was in my heart....  Oh yes right....  Sorry Lord, that was really not what I wanted to hear....  I know I need to deal with the anger of the past and I need to forgive.  Sure I have forgiven, by mouth.... Words are a confirmation of it, right?  Uh not so fast, Lord here I am and I need to deal with the anger of the past and now I need to forgive again?  Now I need to forgive in my heart..... Ever had such a moment?  I could not keep seated, I tried with all my might, I was drawn forward.  Here at the front, in front of 4000 men I am such a small individual.  Then the corporate prayer started and all became silent around me. As tears streamed down my face I asked for fogiveness from Christ for being angry with myself.  I asked for strength to forgive with my heart and soul the tresspasers that had taken advantage of me - yet I own nothing for all comes from God.  In fact I asked God to forgive me for trying to do it on my own and not with His devine help.  That night my friends this man turned the corner.  I want you to know that it can take many years to heal, it will take courage and submission to accept this fact.  But when the time has come and you are called by Your God, do not resist (as if you could). Sunday morning - November 15th 2009.  This is all for you God, this is what I have been living for.  I never thought that all of what You have given me would be enough....  Looking around me I realize now with new eyes that it is more than enough! You taught me how to forgive and how it lightens the burden.  I am no longer afraid of the rat race for now I know that my enough comes from God.